catch up

I'm trying to figure out how to post videos on this blog. We have a couple of videos that are fun, but I can't for the life of me figure out how to upload them. I am not what you would call computer savvy. In fact, it's a tribute to this webhost that I am able to blog at all.. if they hadn't spelled out the directions for me in VERY SIMPLE TERMS there's no way I would have figured it out on my own. thanks, blogger!

So, Monday I went back to work. I was cautiously optimistic, hoping that going back to work would be a nice change of pace, I would get to see alot of my coworker friends, I would enjoy using my brain and hanging out with adults. And the verdict is..... not so much. Work sucked. True, it was nice to see my friends. But WOW, that job is hard. When you work as a nurse on the ICU, you really have to show up and give a hundred percent, physically, emotionally, mentally. There's no phoning it in. Which is totally doable when it's your only job. But combined with sleep deprivation, stress over the baby's development, and the fact that I haven't had any downtime in 8 months, I was nowhere near 100 percent. I was probably closer to 30 percent, and that's being generous. So it was tough. One of my patients was circling the drain and the other spent the day vomiting into his neck brace and trying to climb out of bed. I bounced between the two like a ping pong ball. A brain-dead, overwhelmed ping pong ball. In between caring for them I tried to squeeze in pumping sessions, calls to check on the baby, and finally, lunch. No fun. I'm going to try and suck it up but I'm not sure I'm capable of managing two energy-sapping careers. Call me wussy, I know. Oh well.

As per daycare (aka my mother in law- thanks again!) it seems the baby didn't even know I was gone. Is that the thanks I get after 8 months of slaving away for him. Sheesh. But seriously, I am very grateful that he was well taken care of and enjoyed the day. I now realize that even when he's being a miserable cuss, it's still SO MUCH MORE FUN THAN WORK! If my one day back at work did anything, it made me totally appreciate my time at home with el bambino. No more complaining! Ok, well maybe a little. But WAY LESS.

current mood- home and happy